Things that make me happy!

Today I feel the need to remind myself of all of the little things in life that make me happy. All too often I think I take the little things for granted, and in the end, I think the little things are actually the big things... So, off the top of my head, here are a few things that make me smile!

• Blue skies
• John Cusack movies
• The sound of the rain
• The smell of the air on early summer mornings
• The feel of the sunshine on my skin, any time of year.
• Gerber daisies
• Star filled skies
• Days off from work
• Paychecks
• My car's sunroof/moonroof
• Brick Oven pizza!
• Chaco tan lines
• Almond Rocha
• Smiles from strangers
• Puppies/Dogs
• Babies
• Chill music
• Sleeping in
• High School Yearbooks
• Haircuts
• Roadtrips with friends
• Vacations in general
• Palm trees
• Allred concerts
• The sound of a cello
• Sunsets

There are a few.... :) What makes YOU happy?

Thinkin' Over...

I've had a lot on my mind lately. More than usual, actually. Well, let me back up...

The last few weeks I've been pretty sick, and have spent an unusually large amount of time at home, in bed. When you're home and stuck in bed, you have ridiculous amounts of time to think. [And play on Facebook.] So, everything that I haven't had time to really think about the past few weeks/months came flooding to my mind, and at times, it was a bit overwhelming.

I thought about California. A lot. And obviously not JUST California, but situations surrounding certain people IN California. I gave my heart away to this person 8 years ago and I never really got it back. I've been fighting with myself over this non-stop since October 29th....The day he breezed back into my life. Well, actually I should say, I've been fighting with myself over this since September or October 2001. It's a sick love affair, so to speak, and I'm a hopeless romantic.

I thought a lot about the Church, and it's role in my life. Or rather, the lack-there-of. I went to the Draper Temple Open House on February 14th, and I was hoping to have some miraculous, spiritual experience that opened my eyes and flooded my heart and made me realize everything I have been missing....and...I just...didn't. The building was BEAUTIFUL...But, I just felt like I was walking through JUST THAT...a beautiful building. I had no spiritual connection with the place.

I've thought about Brennan, and how much I miss him. I guess that also ties into the whole "thinking about California" aspect... I haven't been there since his funeral, and would really like to bring some Gerber daisies to his grave...In my opinion, they are the ultimate symbol of friendship. [Well, at least in terms of flowers.]

Going along with missing Brennan, I've come to realize something about myself... I have a very hard time letting people go. I guess that has to do with "Mr. California," too. I care about people a LOT. I think about my friends and how much they mean to me, and maybe this is idealistic, but I invision always being friends with them. I think back to where I was a few years ago, and who I was spending all of my free time with, and sadly, most of my friends from back then have grown into what feels like strangers. That's hard for me. Kurt Cobain once said "It's better to burn out than to fade away." I think that really describes how I feel about friendship. I would rather have a friendship end in some bitter, horrible, beyond-the-point-of-repair type of fight than for the friendship to just fade away, almost like it never existed.

Here's an example. There is a person here in Utah I have been friends with since summer/fall of 2005, I believe.... [For the sake of making this less confusing, I'll refer to this person as "Shawn."] I have a tremendous amount of respect for Shawn. He's funny. He's outgoing. He's willing to help out a friend in need. He's someone I know I can talk to about anything without fear of judgement, and someone who can keep things confidential -- well, the important things anyway. :) I guess in short, he's all of the things a person looks for in a friend. Anyway, Shawn and I used to be good friends and hung out pretty regularly. Then, I don't know what happened. Life changed things. I have been back in Utah for just over a year now, and I've only seen him once. And that was by chance. It makes me sad to see friendships fizzle away, and not know how to fix them, or why they started fading in the first place.

Maybe that's just part of life...

This blog is probably sounding really depressing, ha ha ha, and I promise I don't mean for it to! Like I said, I've just had a lot on my mind and I needed someplace to write it all out, so I can better sort through it all.

Thanks for listening...

Pretty Baby....

I. Want. One.

True Love

Inside these walls one can experience the feeling of True Love. Love from our Heavenly Father.
Oh, what a lovely Valentines Day this is going to be. :)

The A, B, C's of Sarahlee

A- Attached or single: Single

B- Best Friend: I have a few very, very good best friends, both boys and girls, that have passed the test of time. Dawn, Beth, Kellie, Kristen, Brock, Tassy, Sara, Kelso, Mark, Bryan, Michael, etc. So many!!!!

C-Cake or Pie: Gotta go with pie. Specifically pumpkin pie, with whipped cream!

D- Day of choice: Any day I have off from both jobs! :) Usually Mondays & Tuesdays!

E- Essential Item: My backpack. It's filled with all of my essential items, haha.

F- Favorite Color: The blue color of the sky right away when I wake up on a summery day that I don't have to go to work. :) Nothing beats warm, sunny days!

G- Gummi Bears or Worms: Eh, if I had to choose, I'd pick worms. Sour worms.

H- Hometown: Aitkin/Brainerd, Minnesota (I know what you're thinking..."Uhhm, WHERE???")

I- Indulgence(s): Caramel apple suckers :) Mmmmm sooooo good!

J- January or July: Until I learn to snowboard or something, I'm going to have to go with July! :)

K- Kids: I had a dream last night that I had a baby boy, whom I named Jake Taylor; Does that count??? :) (ps - I have NO IDEA where I pulled the last name "Taylor" from, so don't get any ideas! lol)

L-Life is Incomplete Without: Love.

M- Marriage Date: My goal is 10/10/10. :) uhh, that's pushing it, but hey. :) It's always good to have a goal.

N- Number of Siblings: 2 half sisters. Samantha (by my mom) and Joleen (by my dad.) I only know Sam, though.

O- Oranges or Apples: I love both. But I especially love apples when sweetened by Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory's caramel. :)

P- Phobias or Fears: Not being able to say goodbye...

Q- Quotes: "Could have been golden. Could have been something. Could have been anything that we wanted. But we were too fragile, we could be broken, we could be bought. And this is the last time I'm gonna say this, I loved you more than anything. And I still do." ~ "Golden" by ALLRED.

R- Reason To Smile: Sunshine. Music. Friendships. Memories. Take your pic.

S- Season: Autum- The temperature is my favorite. Cool enough during the day to enjoy some layered clothing, but still warm enough at night to not need a coat. Usually. :) The smell of the air when the leaves are changing is unmistakeable -- I wish I could bottle it and spray it in my home all year long!

T- Tag: Beth, Brittany, Kristen

U- Unknown Fact About Me: I have a huge soft spot for red-headed guys. I've never met a mean red head! ;)

V- Vegetarian or Meat Eater: I love chicken too much to be a vegetarian!

W- Worst Habit: biting my nails, or pulling at my split ends... I gotta stop! AHH!

X- X-Rays or Ultrasounds: Well, I've never had an ultrasound, but uhm, I'm gonna go with that one...An x-ray usually means something is broken! hahaha....

Y- Your Favorite Food: Chicken Potstickers from Panda Express. Very guilty pleasure which I give-in to faaar too often! ;)

Z - Zodiac: Aries!