Ironic

Well, that relationship I was talking about in my previous post...Yeah, it lasted 6 days. I couldn't handle it anymore. Sounds crazy, right? I couldn't handle being treated well? I don't know, it just seemed like too much --- I don't like being called "honey" and "baby" and "sweetie" and "darlin" every time you're speaking to me. My name is SARAH!!!! Try using THAT! I'm far too independent to need to be with someone 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Or maybe I just haven't found the person that I'd be OKAY with spending that much time with. Yeah, I'm guessing that's it.

Then there's always the past coming back to bite me. Texting me from time to time, letting me know he's still there, and still holding my heart. Why do I let him have this control over me, and how do I stop it???

I got my laptop back, so...There will be more to come soon!

[ Relationships ]

It's crazy to think that some people can treat others so badly. It's also amazing that some can treat those same people so WELL. Looking back on the men I've dated in the past few years and comparing them to the guy I'm dating right now, I see what an extreme difference there is in the way they have treated me.

Now I find it surprising when a guy DOESN'T get mad over the little things. This new guy I am dating is constantly pleasantly surprising me with how patient he is, with the way he doesn't get jealous, and the way he's always giving me sincere compliments.

Barack Obama was right. It WAS time for change. :)

I'm liking this...

A Time for Change

I believe the time for change has come.

Thank you, Barack Obama.

Thank you, America.

Together, WE CAN!

Isn't It Funny...

Sometimes, while driving down the road, you will hit a patch of fog. Even if you're familiar with the land and the terrain, it still puts a lot of guess-work into your task at hand (which is to drive through safely.) You go slow, of course, not really sure what lies just ahead. Then suddenly, the fog lifts, and you are once again fully aware of your surroundings, thankful to not have to deal with the fog anymore.

That's how I've been feeling lately. IN the fog, I mean.

Well, friends. Tonight, the fog lifted. I have been dealing with a situation lately that has often times left me confused and essentially, "in the dark" about the near future and what would happen. However, tonight, certain things happened to make me realize what a "fog" I was in during that situation. It was hard. It was painful. I was always wondering what came next... Well, due to a series of non-events (things that didn't happen, but should have) I have been freed from the blindness the fog caused, and I am able to see things for what they really are. See people for who they really are.

Why would I ever want to voluntarily go back into that state of fogginess?

Let's hope I am able to hang on to this moment of clarity...

Part Two

Okay, I'm usually not one who has a lack of things to say, but the last few text messages I've recieved have left me speechless. SPEECHLESS! I almost don't even know what to write here!!!!!!

As I said in my last blog, a friend from the past got in touch with me via text message last night. We continued our texting today... He is not Mormon anymore, he's getting divorced! Talk about dropping a bomb-shell! I don't know what to think! At one point, this guy was my STRENGTH....And now he's not even LDS!

I....I....I am seriously speechless.

HELP!

Just When I Thought...

Just when I thought that the past was dead and gone, I got a late night text message. I don't think the text had any real point (as it didn't say much at all) other than to make his existance fresh in my mind.

He always did have the worst (and best) timing.

Halloween is just around the corner and I bought the finishing touches for my costume last night. Let's "hope" it turns out the way I planned, haha. I'm going to the costume party at the restaurant I work at in Park City. My friend Alli is coming, as is my 'brother' Mark and two of his friends, and possibly two of my guy friends from the Provo area. I am certain the place will have a good turn out, all of the employees are bringing their friends. I have to work that night til close, but will go upstairs for the party afterward. Maaaaybe if you're lucky I'll post pictures. ;) haha... What are all of you dressing up as for halloween?

The Marriott is having a pumpkin contest too, and each department is in charge of decorating a pumpkin. Maybe it's the side of me that likes crap-food, but I like this idea: