The title of this post really has nothing to do with the post itself. It is simply a line from a song I've listened to quite a bit lately.
I haven't updated this in quite some time, and for that I apologize. I doubt anyone even reads it anymore, ha ha ha... Nonetheless, I thought I'd give a little update about what has been going on in my life.
First and foremost, my computer is dead, DeAd, DEAD. It doesn't recognize the hard drive is even in the computer, thus making it impossible for Windows to load. I blame the "disk clean-up" I did just before it crashed. {Insert a classic "Rawr" here} I will be buying a new hard drive in the next few weeks and then life should be business as usual. The hard part is that I can't upload or edit any pictures until my computer is fixed. I also can't update my iPod. Oh yeah, that's another thing.... Because it had been a few months since I last backed up my hard drive to my external hard drive, I've lost tons of music, and even more photos. Booooo!!! I guess that means I'll have to do some more PHOTOSHOOTS!! :) Any takers??? :)
In terms of "the guy scene" in my life...Well, let's just say it's kind of chaotic. Over the last few months I have also learned that you should say what's on your mind. I have found the line in "My Best Friend's Wedding" to be more true than I originally realized; "When you love someone, you SAY IT! Right then! Out loud! Otherwise, the moment just...passes you by."
There isn't much worse than finding out a few years down the line that the other person cared about you back then, too, but nothing was done about it for WHATEVER reason.
A few months ago I was talking with a friend of mine who served his mission in Minnesota (he actually taught me the discussions when I was first investigating the church!) and he gave me what was maybe the biggest compliment of my life. Backstory: I was completely in love with this kid for like, 3 years....After he finished his mission, he came back to Utah (where he's from) and we kept in touch. He came back to Minnesota once for a wedding and took me as his date. The kid is a rockstar. Funny, caring, genuine....Just an all around great guy. Well, he eventually got married and started a family of his own. He now has 4 awesome kids and his wife is a doll! We still keep in touch sometimes. Like I said, a few months ago we were talking on the phone and he said, "Sarah....Don't take this the wrong way, I am completely in love with my wife and kids and I wouldn't trade them for the world, but sometimes I feel like I missed out on dating you and I wish we would have given it a shot." I think when he said that, my heart stopped for a second. I guess I'm always so afraid of what would happen to the friendship if I tell someone how I feel about them and they don't feel the same way, so I typically don't say anything to them about it. I think it's maybe almost WORSE to find out later that what you hoped could have been, really COULD HAVE been.... Blahhhh...
So maybe "A day late, a buck short" really did apply to the post after all, haha...
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oh my good grief sarah...if you are talking about who I think you are talking about that's really sad. If Andy ever dared say that to another girl he would be so gone. I don't know what married man would talk like that to another girl but come on. Don't take it as a compliment, you should have put him in his place. The grass IS NOT always greener on the other side and he should just focus on his wife and kids and get his head out of his butt. THE END.
wow, okay, I liked what the Klous family had to say. But I had intended to comment on the fact that am I one who does know that you should "forget about ruining the friendship and ask out your best friend." Regrets of a lifetime. They never go away. And yes, it's been so long since you posted, I haven't checked your blog in forever and now there is a ton of reading to do.
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